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Monday, May 7, 2012

Evolving on Unsteady Ground


To feel simultaneously the end of something and the beginning of something is momentous.  It is strange to to have these alternating feelings of knowing and not knowing, as I feel so much these days without Robert.  I know he is with me in spirit but there are so many things I wish I could still ask him.  There is so much more to know.  I have to drill down deep, sit and think quietly to find the answers.  Sometimes I don't find them at all.

I am learning to speak what I know so that I am offering wisdom and guidance not lecturing.  I will not stoop to the strategy of only taking action on what I know for sure.  This is paralyzing.  I am using my skills and a curious brain to reach for more, always challenging myself to step into the unknown.  This along with the support of all of you helps me evolve.  It's alright to be lost sometimes as long as I know where to go for answers.

I have also learned that in order to grow the ground must be unsteady under my feet.

Love to you all,
Tosca
Posted by Tosca Reno at 11:30 AM

19 comments:

  1. Craig NewellMay 7, 2012 at 11:35 AM

    As always, you are in our thoughts.

    Your friends,
    The Newell Family

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  2. GwenMay 7, 2012 at 11:37 AM

    Stay strong, Tosca. We love you.

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  3. DawnMay 7, 2012 at 11:41 AM

    Tosca,
    Still thinking of you and your family and wishing you peace. I have heard you speak on a few occasions, and only come away feeling inspired and motivated, never lectured. Your enthusiasm for life is contagious and we are lucky to have you guide and inspire us.
    Dawn :)

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  4. LaurenMay 7, 2012 at 11:48 AM

    We love you too, Tosca!

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  5. Just miss cMay 7, 2012 at 11:54 AM

    I'm sorry for your loss. It is never easy losing someone you love so much. But, you are right it can only make you grow and make you stronger in the end.

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  6. Tia JohnsonMay 7, 2012 at 12:00 PM

    As a lady in my 20s, I'm inspired by those in older generations with curiosity and the willingness to keep expanding, growing and learning--as this is my lifelong goal. The true teacher is a true student.

    Namaste (the good in me bows to the good in you)

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  7. Tiffany LeiterMay 7, 2012 at 12:53 PM

    That very platform...is why I love you and your work, Tosca. You are here to share, not take. You are a wonderful role model. No return, no retreat and no regret. Hugs.

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  8. AnonymousMay 7, 2012 at 1:03 PM

    Gut wrenching. I loved this: I am learning to speak what I know so that I am offering wisdom and guidance not lecturing. This I will take with me for life.

    Off topic and I'm really, really hoping you can publish an answer. I would like to add protein powder to my diet but I cannot find one that I like (and with four kids, the cost can add up, and it gets thrown into the garbage!). I live outside Toronto, so I'm not that far from you and am hoping that you can suggest something (hopefully Canadian!) so I can try it.

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  9. AnonymousMay 7, 2012 at 1:16 PM

    Never mind, I found it and my local health food store carries it.

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  10. Karen Bridson-BoyczukMay 7, 2012 at 1:16 PM

    I have felt so close to you through your books and columns and it's been so very lovely to have been cyber-with you through this latest journey. You have given us all so much. We've got your back.
    Karen

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  11. 3LittleMonkeysMay 7, 2012 at 2:36 PM

    My thoughts continue to be with you.

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  12. SusieMay 7, 2012 at 2:54 PM

    You are an amazing woman and i know you will get through this. Grief is so paralyzing but it makes us a better person in the end. I feel your pain, as you know. :) Im here if you ever need to talk.

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  13. DebbieMay 7, 2012 at 3:09 PM

    Tosca:
    thank you for continuing to share with us as you find your way through the uncertainty. It connects you to your fans in a great way. You continue to inspire and your strength is motivating. Good luck to you and i always look foward to your words!

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  14. Sweet Pure HoneyMay 7, 2012 at 4:09 PM

    Oh Tosca your words penetrate into our hearts and your wisdoms touches our tears!!!!
    We love you!!!

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  15. craftpriestessMay 7, 2012 at 5:30 PM

    It is ok not to know.

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  16. cygnetMay 7, 2012 at 5:35 PM

    Tosca you are an incredible women. Your sustained strength, courage and class provides an endless well of motivation and encouragement to my daily life. I hope that our support, love and admiration for you will lighten your path ahead. As my Mum would say, you're made of the good stuff.

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  17. three puppies :)May 7, 2012 at 10:01 PM

    Tosca,
    Know that we are all out here praying and thinking about you. Warm hugs coming your way.
    Love from Ann Arbor
    Karen

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  18. UnknownMay 8, 2012 at 9:17 AM

    You are one phenomenal woman Tosca! I so admire your strength and positive additude as you strive to push forward and continue to grow through this difficult time. Thank you for sharing your life and your struggles with us!

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  19. tanMay 8, 2012 at 11:14 AM

    Tosca your words like Robert's continue to inspire.sending love and warm thoughts your way.Tanya

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